Shine through

The path to enlightenment can only be sought through a life of strife. Thus we must face each trial beset before us.

~Jerod~

Let it rain

The rain is pouring.
I'm soaking wet.
Let it rain.

These trials that I pass make me invincible.

FWA-BAM!

So yah. I've been doing awesome. I went for a walk the other day, one of the few I had off work, and I ended up stopping at this hill outside of town. I climbed to the top and laid down. I thought how I'm totally fine with my life. Sure I get mad some times but who cares. I'll get threw it one way or another. I'm fine with how things are, the people in my life, and even those who aren't.

Yep.


That is all.

~WHAT~

What ever

I got the most interesting phone call today. At first I was shocked. Then sad. Then hopeful. Then I realized who I was talking to. Then I laughed. I told her several ways on how to fall down a flight of stairs. Then I hung up.

I really don't care any more. I'm fine with where I'm at. Sure things could always be better. But does it really matter? Eh.

Oh, random person who is reading if you know the secret to life please share. If not then find some where else to loiter.

Thank you.

The truth?

Now you want to know
You want a name
You want to call me motherfucker
Now you want to know
You want a name
You want to say it doesn't matter
Now that you wanna know
Now you wanna name
Now you wanna place
Now you wanna time
Now you want it all
In a world that i dont want to know
With a message that i never want to send
To be free from all of this
I want you to quicken my end


FINE!!
THE TRUTH

The truth is I love being in a fight.
The truth is I have drank before and I honestly regret it.
The truth is when I get angry I get scared
The truth is I have serious feelings for you.
The truth is I do want to do something about it but I don't want to hurt you.
The truth is I doubt I can stop caring until I face this.
The truth is I love my damn job.
The truth is half the time I smile or laugh it's faked.
The truth is I can't smile just because I feel bad about not being honest.
The truth is I could care less.
The truth is I do care
The truth is.. I'm tired.
I'm tired of being so damned tired all the time. I want to feel alive again.
That felt good. I think I'll go to school smiling tomorrow.

~Jerod Lee Botts~

The truth is my full middle name is Leto. My mom loved the dune series. My dad didn't think Leto suited me.

~Jerod Leto Botts~

The lines that cross the sky..

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violence
just run with me through roads of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago


it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah
~Imogen Heap


--
I sleep now.

~Jerod~

Du hast mich

Theres so much to say. So much swept away. So much that keeps me up at nights.
I want to say how much I care.
I want to say how much it makes me mad.
I want to say how much I would try.
I want to say how much I would sweat.
I want to shout how much I can.
I want to know the truth.
I want to not have to hide.
I want to be honest.

I'm all that I can be. Thats all I've got.