Life

Like a party?

Count me in.

Indifference?

My weekend was alright. I enjoyed seeing and talking to some friends at the game and dance that I hadn't for awhile. Or at least it felt like I hadn't talked to them for a while. I could have gone with out doing a few things this weekend but over all it went alright.

I'm already tired of school. I do enjoy seeing my friends and sometimes putting my mind to a task at school but then I run into people I have problems with or just plain dislike. Plus I'm starting to fall behind in school again. Most of my week days are occupied by work. So I don't have much time for homework. And I can't afford to quit work.

Things around my house are finally starting to stabilize my dad is being more easy going. My brother and I are on better terms then we have been in a long time. I still am thinking about moving out the summer between my junior and senior year. I'll probably take in another job or two during this summer and save up. At this point I don't really know. But it doesn't bother me that much. Sure I wish things were easier and then I could concentrate some other parts of my life but it could be a lot worse. Oh well.

Till next time.

~Jerod~

Shine through

The path to enlightenment can only be sought through a life of strife. Thus we must face each trial beset before us.

~Jerod~

Let it rain

The rain is pouring.
I'm soaking wet.
Let it rain.

These trials that I pass make me invincible.

FWA-BAM!

So yah. I've been doing awesome. I went for a walk the other day, one of the few I had off work, and I ended up stopping at this hill outside of town. I climbed to the top and laid down. I thought how I'm totally fine with my life. Sure I get mad some times but who cares. I'll get threw it one way or another. I'm fine with how things are, the people in my life, and even those who aren't.

Yep.


That is all.

~WHAT~

What ever

I got the most interesting phone call today. At first I was shocked. Then sad. Then hopeful. Then I realized who I was talking to. Then I laughed. I told her several ways on how to fall down a flight of stairs. Then I hung up.

I really don't care any more. I'm fine with where I'm at. Sure things could always be better. But does it really matter? Eh.

Oh, random person who is reading if you know the secret to life please share. If not then find some where else to loiter.

Thank you.

The truth?

Now you want to know
You want a name
You want to call me motherfucker
Now you want to know
You want a name
You want to say it doesn't matter
Now that you wanna know
Now you wanna name
Now you wanna place
Now you wanna time
Now you want it all
In a world that i dont want to know
With a message that i never want to send
To be free from all of this
I want you to quicken my end


FINE!!
THE TRUTH

The truth is I love being in a fight.
The truth is I have drank before and I honestly regret it.
The truth is when I get angry I get scared
The truth is I have serious feelings for you.
The truth is I do want to do something about it but I don't want to hurt you.
The truth is I doubt I can stop caring until I face this.
The truth is I love my damn job.
The truth is half the time I smile or laugh it's faked.
The truth is I can't smile just because I feel bad about not being honest.
The truth is I could care less.
The truth is I do care
The truth is.. I'm tired.
I'm tired of being so damned tired all the time. I want to feel alive again.
That felt good. I think I'll go to school smiling tomorrow.

~Jerod Lee Botts~

The truth is my full middle name is Leto. My mom loved the dune series. My dad didn't think Leto suited me.

~Jerod Leto Botts~