It's not hiding if I'm truly happy.

HELLO EVERY ONE WHO DOESN'T READ MY BLOG!


Well, I thought I'd check in. Give yah the info. So here it is. I'm relatively good where I'm at. I'm not doing terrible in school, sure theres room for improvement but no big deal. My home life is relatively the same I'm just dealing with it a little better. As for my social life.. yah. I hardly ever go out any more. My friends are all turning against each other and themselves. I should help but how can I do that when they won't listen and only try to self destruct. I do feel some what responsible since this all started happening alittle after my last breakdown, which was a long while ago. Speaking of which I'm doing great mentally, emotionally, and even psychically. I've found a way for myself to focus. Fighting. Its hard to understand. Even for me. I just feel totally relaxed when I'm pushing myself. Sure I originally did it cause I was angry or something like that but now its different. I don't think I'm gonna be doing these underground fights for much longer. Theirs a tournament coming up that will give me enough money to pay back my dad for all the money I owe him. I just have to weight a year before I can go semi-pro. Right now I'm not sure about my future, college, moving out, being an adult. I don't know whats gonna happen and yes that stuff scares the crap out of me but I don't care. Right now all I'm worried about is the now. Could things be better? Yes. But I'm content. And that makes me happy. And last time I checked being happy is a good thing. Even if its an ignorant happy.


What's this? What's this?
There's color everywhere
What's this?
There's white things in the air
What's this?
I can't believe my eyes
I must be dreaming
Wake up, jack, this isn't fair
What's this?

What's this? What's this?
There's something very wrong
What's this?
There are people singing songs

What's this?
The streets are lined with
Little creatures laughing
Everybody seems so happy
Have I possibly gone daffy?
What is this?
What's this?

There are children throwing snowballs here
instead of throwing heads
They're busy building toys
And absolutely no one's dead

There's frost on every window
Oh, I can't believe my eyes
And in my bones I feel the warmth
That's coming from inside

Oh, look
What's this?
They're hanging mistletoe, they kiss
Why that looks so unique, inspired
They're gathering around to hear a story
Roasting chestnuts on a fire
What's this?
What's this?

In here they've got a little tree, how queer
And who would ever think
And why?

They're covering it with tiny little things
They've got electric lights on strings
And there's a smile on everyone
So, now, correct me if I'm wrong
This looks like fun
This looks like fun
Oh, could it be I got my wish?
What's this?

Oh my, what now?
The children are asleep
But look, there's nothing underneath
No ghouls, no witches here to scream and scare them
Or ensnare them, only little cozy things
Secure inside their dreamland
What's this?

The monsters are all missing
And the nightmares can't be found
And in their place there seems to be
Good feeling all around

Instead of screams, I swear
I can hear music in the air
The smell of cakes and pies
Is absolutely everywhere

The sights, the sounds
They're everywhere and all around
I've never felt so good before
This empty place inside of me is filling up
I simply cannot get enough

I want it, oh, I want it
Oh, I want it for my own
I've got to know
I've got to know
What is this place that I have found?
What is this?
Christmas Town, hmm...
~!JEROD!~